One of those times, when you feel lonely even in a crowd... When everything is fine, and you feel impending doom.... One of those, when as much as you wish it to just shut up, your mind takes on that nagging "Wait and Watch" tone.
Why do such days happen? Why is every bright sunny day threatened by the dark grey clouds? Ever noticed their hide-and-seek? Tough to say who is hiding from whom. Or is this just me, being me-in-one-of-those-days mood? Guess so!
Want to make wishes, but scared to jinx them by just wanting them bad enough. Want to walk that extra mile, but can't, fearing I'll be standing there all alone. Want to light that fire, but fear of burning my hand while lighting the wood keeps me from it.
Ah, there it is! "Fear"... that most dreaded word in the English language, as far as I go! "Foolish", "Eerie", "Arbitrary", "Roaming" of the mind. *sheepish grin*
Fear of the unknown is my greatest. It has its way of emptying me of all happiness, like the Harry Potter dementors suck out all feelings from people. Weird, since I love painting bright pictures for people around. Why can't I just make one for myself?My personal piece of rainbow, or something to that effect.
Thoughts have a way of complicating your life, don't they? Yet, they are a necessary evil. Can't seem to get much work done without "thoughts". No one complains when the thoughts are happy, do they?!
So for the moment, I shall have to believe that "bad thoughts" are required to make you realize how precious the "happy thoughts" are. :)
And yes, now for that mug of cocoa. :)
So long!
Why do such days happen? Why is every bright sunny day threatened by the dark grey clouds? Ever noticed their hide-and-seek? Tough to say who is hiding from whom. Or is this just me, being me-in-one-of-those-days mood? Guess so!
Want to make wishes, but scared to jinx them by just wanting them bad enough. Want to walk that extra mile, but can't, fearing I'll be standing there all alone. Want to light that fire, but fear of burning my hand while lighting the wood keeps me from it.
Ah, there it is! "Fear"... that most dreaded word in the English language, as far as I go! "Foolish", "Eerie", "Arbitrary", "Roaming" of the mind. *sheepish grin*
Fear of the unknown is my greatest. It has its way of emptying me of all happiness, like the Harry Potter dementors suck out all feelings from people. Weird, since I love painting bright pictures for people around. Why can't I just make one for myself?My personal piece of rainbow, or something to that effect.
Thoughts have a way of complicating your life, don't they? Yet, they are a necessary evil. Can't seem to get much work done without "thoughts". No one complains when the thoughts are happy, do they?!
So for the moment, I shall have to believe that "bad thoughts" are required to make you realize how precious the "happy thoughts" are. :)
And yes, now for that mug of cocoa. :)
So long!
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