Of Mangoes, Roses and Blooms

I knew something was wrong with my beloved mango tree in April. It was just like the last time, one day the tree smiles back at me, and the next, it's all withered. It did again... not only did it wither, it died.

I've been watching that tree like a hawk all these months, wondering if any of those mangoes would ripen, and if so, when. And then God sent me the answer. They wouldn't, He said: this tree is not for your garden. But don't lose heart, you shall find the right one soon. Maybe it won't be a mango, but all the same, do not despair, my child.

I knew there would eventually be a bad season and part of me is actually relieved to have it over with. And also to know that things will be back to normal next season. 

And sure enough, soon I woke up dreaming about roses. I got up had my first coffee and was still wondering what this was about roses. I get through the day as usual, and sometime during it, I read a magazine, and in it, I find an article with the title: Roses Will Bloom Again. It's something I'd like to share with you. 

Richard was sharing how he was going through the southwest and seen a desert rose, and it came to him in the form of God, who said the desert shall rejoice, and blossom as the rose. And he remembered that it takes God to put the bloom in the rose. But more than that, it takes God to change the desert of our lives for the roses to grow there. Then he moved on in the story about a man who was very sick and getting worse until came a day where his doctor seen his medicine was not working. In seeing that this doctor gave him a word of encouragement which later, this man rose from his death bed and was healed. Those words were,"Cheer up, the roses will bloom again." The story ends with that God is not through with ours lives. Roses will bloom again iin the desert of our lives. 

I know sometimes one feels like one's home is like an empty nest at times and life is like a dry barren desert, but the roses shall bloom once again.

That's how it shall be. Signs- that you would need to read from a different slant, Words- that you would need to interpret differently, and a whole lot of other things. And once you do, that's when you shall step out into your garden, and see the rose, blooming :)

On stepping into the twenties :)

Never felt a road as rocky or a fall as hard, wait, yes I have; which means I did it once, I can do it again. Things are never perfect but I like to look at a glass half full. My day-to-day motto is: step in shit, you’re bound to smell it. So I try to dodge shitty people, shitty situations, and shitty confrontations. I can say that I’ve definitely learned a lot, especially in this year of life. My teenaged days are something to only look back at and know that there where definitely good times and that those times supremely surpassed the bad. It is early twenties and very experimental, though  ‘they say’ that stage is typically in the teens, and by experimental I mean within myself; getting familiarized with who I am and who I will be shaped into for the rest on my life. Still breathing and realizing that I am never certain on what I want or who I truly am yet. I have tons of goals and and I’m trying to find ways to accomplish all of them. I guess the success of it all and being content, truly content in life, happens when you have everything all figured out…lets just say that I’m content knowing that I do not have it all figured out nor do I even know where I’m going or where I will end up. It’s like I’m walking the yellow brick road…the view is though is magnificent. 

A new one.

Well, it is for a "new one"... I am heading back to the daily hum-drum of life, after a long leisurely vacation and a relaxing time at home. And this time, the "me" who is going back is a happier, stronger and surer one. And of course, to a different "life" than the one I left behind. The new-ness of it all does give me those butterflies in the tummy!!

I am really looking forward to what is in store in life ahead, in the few months to come. Having decided to take it as it comes, I shall let the sweet things be cherished and the not-so-sweet ones be taken with a pinch of salt.

Leaving, with a new page for life to scribble its text on, and I can almost smell the fresh smell of the parchment :)

Still very much in love, with life, and with myself. :) :)

Smiles everyone's way.

Till next time.

Friends

Happy Friendship's Day!

Friends :) I identify with someone who said today that being an only child, my friendships have defined and completed me. This is true for me, not that I have many "true" friends. I have had friends all over the country, with Dad being in the Army and having travelled widely in the country. Yet, the lasting ones and the ones I cherish most, are few :)


Friends...came and went, some stayed for a while, and some forever. 
They all left a mark, some short-term, and others, lasting ones.


However today, when I stand and look back, I cherish the friendship I have with few special people...single digits to be precise. Why?? Because they were with me when I had no one, and they have been there to pick me up from the depths of despair every single time I tripped. And never have they said "I told you so". Ever.


What makes me happy today is that I know there are people out in this world, who I can bank on, and who shall vouch for me all the same. Very few, I agree, but nevertheless, they exist. And their existence is enough to make me smile on those days when the sun does not rise and shine for me. 


And today, I would want them to know that I love them with all my heart, and shall strive to be there for them all the way, in ways more than I could hope for, and that I cherish every single memory I have of them, and with them. Our bond is eternal. 


Love to all. 

A new beginning

This is me, attempting to begin life afresh, with new resolve and determination, and yes, loads of love. 

The past months of my life have certainly not been the best ones. I have loved and lost, but I am glad that I got to love, like never before. Those 18months of my life were full of "goods" and "not-so-goods"... 18 months... have passed, and 3 more after that. Need a pinch sometimes to remind me I'm in the 3-months phase and not the 18month-one! Needless to say, I loved it, with all I could! And now, it's time to say good-bye to those happy times, and move forward, to find more smiles :)

I am not about to brood or go into retrospect and find reasons to blame myself, like I have before. This time, I am going to follow "Do not be sad it ended, be happy it happened" and move on. To a new start, where the sun shall rise and shine again, and the stars shall smile down on me. 

 In the time that has passed, I have learnt a lot, realized a lot, and understood a lot. And now, with these lessons, I shall pack my bags, say a sweet good-bye to what-was, and say a bright and cheery "Hi!" to a new tomorrow.

Here's to a new beginning! Cheers! 

Until next time.